God always knows better
When I was in high school I remember how heartbreaking it was to end a relationship before I was ready for it to be over.
Even when I was the unhappy one
When they weren’t willing to do the work…
It somehow felt like I had failed.
I also remember
how grateful I was
after enough time had passed….
my emotional attachment would dissipate…
I was able to see
that my life was actually better without that person.
It’s taken time
and a lot of internal growth to change the way that
my mind was trained
I was raised to believe that you don’t quit,
that you make the best of what you have…
I have always had an
“quitting is not an option”
I remember being called spoiled if I were to receive an upgrade…
If I even desired something better.
When something is not working anymore
I am learning to let go
more quickly each time.
I am not running
seeking a temporary distraction anymore…
I am learning to simply release my emotional attachment to it
God can do His thing.
It doesn’t always feel good.
Sometimes I get stuck
In trying to fix it
attempting to achieve justice where
I believe it’s due…
I am getting better.
When it hurts…
I am reminded that
The blessing is in the breaking.
The closer He and I get
The more He moves.
It’s kinda of a trust fall
Where we get to show each other how much
we can trust the other
to do their part.
Life is not meant to stay the same.
We are not always meant to be
where we think
we want to be
even with the people who we believe we can’t live without.
We are meant to
keep traveling down
the path that
God has mapped out
for our lives.
We were not created to submit to it…
sit in it…
We were created to
Rise above it.
“Test me in this,”
says the LORD Almighty, “and see
if I will not throw open the floodgates of heaven and pour out
so many blessings that you will not have
room enough for it.”