Jessica and God “God always knows better”

Jessica and God “God always knows better”

 

God always knows better

When I was in high school I remember how heartbreaking it was to end a relationship before I was ready for it to be over.

Even when I was the unhappy one

Or 

When they weren’t willing to do the work…

It somehow felt like I had failed.

I also remember 

how grateful I was 

after enough time had passed…. 

After 

my emotional attachment would dissipate… 

And

I was able to see 

clearly again, 

that my life was actually better without that person. 

It’s taken time 

and a lot of internal growth to change the way that 

my mind was trained 

to process 

traumatic and 

life-changing events.

I was raised to believe that you don’t quit,

And

that you make the best of what you have…

So

I have always had an 

“all in” 

and a

“quitting is not an option” 

Mentality. 

I remember being called spoiled if I were to receive an upgrade…

Or

If I even desired something better. 

Now

When something is not working anymore

I am learning to let go

more quickly each time. 

I am not running

Or

seeking a temporary distraction anymore… 

But

I am learning to simply release my emotional attachment to it

So 

God can do His thing.

It doesn’t always feel good.

Sometimes I get stuck

In trying to fix it

Or 

attempting to achieve justice where 

I believe it’s due…

But 

With God

I am getting better.

When it hurts… 

so bad

I am reminded that 

The blessing is in the breaking.

The closer He and I get

The more He moves.

It’s kinda of a trust fall

Where we get to show each other how much

we can trust the other

to do their part. 

Life is not meant to stay the same.

We are not always meant to be

where we think 

we want to be

Or

even with the people who we believe we can’t live without.

We are meant to

keep traveling down 

the path that 

God has mapped out

for our lives. 

We were not created to submit to it… 

sit in it… 

Or

run from it.

We were created to

Rise above it. 

“Test me in this,” 

says the LORD Almighty, “and see 

if I will not throw open the floodgates of heaven and pour out 

so many blessings that you will not have 

room enough for it.”

Malachi 3:10