Would you give up good for great? What would it take for you to give it ALL up for great? What is it that God is poking on you about surrendering to Him? What if the loss you currently feel is God taking good away from you to provide you with great?
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Blessing to you!
Joshua T Berglan
“The World’s Mayor”
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Hey, what’s up everybody, my name is Joshua, and I’m the world’s Mayor, thank you so much for being here. Today, we are on the live mana network. And you can find us by downloading our app on your phone, tablet, your computer, even your smart TVs App Store. are also you can find us on your favorite podcast networks for now. So here’s the deal. Today’s broadcast is going just I’m I have nothing prepared what should never really have anything prepared, although I have a devotional or something inspirational or something, a subject and I’m don’t even know what this subject is, because this very well could be our very last broadcast. I don’t know, I have no idea. And so what I want to do is just share, it’s, I guess, a bit of our testimony and a bit of whatever comes through me. So Holy Spirit help me, please speak through me. I’ve tried to broadcast for the last four days. I think that what I didn’t know what today is no, that’s not true. So Monday, Tuesday, Sunday. Anyway, I’ve tried to broadcast quite a few times. And in even in those days, even with having testing positive for COVID. I like I wanted to come on here and broadcast because I felt like this is, well, this is what I love to do. This is a dream of mine. And I never in my wildest dreams thought that I would get to broadcast of course, when I started having these visions as a child. I, you know, I believed with all my heart, hold on, I need to make sure that I have my right mic on. Because yesterday. Okay, I have it on yesterday, one of the reasons I did like for broadcast yesterday, and I’m talking like 40 minute broadcast. And in the middle of these broadcast, I would my brain would space out, I would stop, I was switching in the middle, like just nonstop. And I would have these delays where I would just stop. And I couldn’t talk anymore. And and I don’t know if that was from the COVID or what but it was awful. Well, anyway, I decided will die deleted this broadcast anyway, I wanted to show this very vulnerable side. And then I realized that it could absolutely make me look like a complete psychopath. Not that I went off or went nuts or anything. But you can literally see me skipping out, it was just like, I’d left my body for a while. And then I came back and I left my and it was happening over and over and over again. And I this looks. This is like what people would use as evidence to try to get you locked up in a psych ward. And I can’t do that. But so what I’m going to do today is like that crap, though, is real. For me. That what was happening was what my life with di D was like, and it was playing out. And I almost wish I didn’t chicken out and broadcast. But the problem was when I went back and did the broadcast again. I did it and I didn’t have as many skips in my brain but I still let it show well then come to find out the whole thing was on mute. Or I didn’t have the mic setting setup. And it’s so interesting, because my dream was from I mean, I’m not kidding from the childhood on was to be a talk show host
I loved Oprah loved Don Imus and Howard Well, I wasn’t that big of a Howard Stern fan. But you know what he was doing was revolutionary. I liked Opie and Anthony. We love talk radio though, loved all the local host. I listening to K OMA as a kid with my dad in the backseat him telling me stories about the bands that he toured with. And like I The bands are cool, because I mean, David Lee Roth was huge when I was growing up and like I wanted, like a lead singer, but I couldn’t sing or dance. But I you know, loved lead singers, but the thing was, is that I was more interested in the interviewer. And so I loved MPP you know, infomercials. Love was huge fan of Forbes Riley, of course, getting to be friends with her late years later. And this was this was my dream. And I never believed it was possible to ever get to broadcast or do TV or do any of that stuff. But I had a dream for it. And I wanted to do it. And I worked with kids flex disabilities for 18 years. And anytime anyone ever asked me what I wanted to do, I would tell them, I want to pitch products on HSN and QVC. Excuse me, and and I also wanted to have a talk show, and wanted to travel the world and serve. Like those are the things that the three things that I would say every time. And you know, and then of course, now that the vision is like God would as if God would work on my heart, this, you know, family would enter the picture. And, of course, I didn’t have the behavior or the discipline or any of that stuff for so many years to have a family to do any of this stuff with, much less did I have any of the maturity to be able to do any of that stuff anyway, like all the other stuff, even without a family, I wasn’t mature enough, or had the discipline enough to be able to do it. But that’s what I wanted to do. And it’s what I dreamed of doing. And I didn’t understand that I was created to make that dream come true.
Or, basically, because those are the dreams and visions that I was having. That was God showing me what was possible. Of course, I didn’t know all that blue when I was living the life that I was living for all those years. But when I gave my life to the Lord, I was reminded of what I was supposed to do. Now, again, there’s way more to the vision there, the and the vision. And what I believe the calling on my life is it’s not about being a talk show host it’s not about pitching products. It wasn’t really about that there was much bigger, more important reason, I guess, that I was supposed to do or not hold on, it was bigger than being a host and bigger than, you know, talking about products. There was more underlying stuff, which I know to be media and the vision and the way that I see things and just my skill set my gifting it was strategically meant to think like a media mogul, but it for the future. And I think about over the course of my life, I think about the influences I have, I think about the over the what I naturally gravitated towards my natural desires, the things that I love, because I think about even when I was a junkie, and I don’t want to get sidetracked almost told one of those stories that I could tell and then lose where I was at MC I just did it by doing that. Oh, I know, before, even before I gave my life to the Lord, I had a certain skill set and gifting. But I also had a very deep seated desire to want to help people. And so you got to understand that drugs and sex were more important to me that my family, drugs and sex were more important to me than my mom who’s been everything to me. You know, Chris, I’m so blessed to have the wife that I have now. But I didn’t have I wasn’t capable of loving anything or anyone. But I will tell you that I saw someone in trouble. The everything in me changed. I became compassionate. I became soft hearted, I became full of love. I became all those things. And but then, of course, it would turn into a monster right after. And it was pretty confusing because people would see the good that I was doing and just were brainwashed by that. And so people like enabled me without knowing people helped me wear my mask helped me hide. And I’m not blaming anybody. I mean people do it all the time. Like we’re we it’s our nature. We’ve been trained to trust what comes out of our TV and from our news media, never thought to question what it really all was. Media is the most powerful medium in the world, but that word medium, it’s not really clear. Good word, what it can mean? And I use it all the time.
But anyway, so like getting to do this is a dream for me. And of course, the way that I envision doing it is not the way I’m doing it. You know, my dreams and visions were doing actual TV. And actual, what do you call it? In radio, and I know The world’s changed and things are digital now. But those were my dreams. To be fair, sitting behind this camera. And there’s a delay, by the way. I never had, like equipment that I’ve been happy and satisfied with. But I’ve worked with the budget that I had to make it work, you know, and what am I going to do this is I want to do the best I can and be a good steward of what I have. And I have this dream. And I want to make it true. Like when I first started broadcasting. When I first started broadcasting, it was like I, it was on Facebook Live. And instead of treating it like a Facebook Live, I treated it like a TV show. Because that’s what I wanted to do. I learned a lot of hard lessons on that journey trying to discover I learned what pay for play TV is and when someone invites you to come to be on TV, there may be a catch to it. I remember getting to do Fox News for the first time Fox Business actually went to go record in New York. And it was right after being homeless. And I got this opportunity to go talk on camera about what I was doing. It’s like, because I was working with all of these different companies and helping them really it was media related services. Of course, I wasn’t calling it that then I was looked at it as brand development. And, and I but I was getting to work with all of these different brands, gosh, my brain just skipped out again. Gosh, it’s so embarrassing. Anyway, it doesn’t matter. My point is that I I’ve been getting to live this dream and pursuing it anyway. And the vehicle the medium, like everything I’ve been able to utilize, has, like it’s been a blessing. Because every day of getting to do this has been another step towards what I believe is my destiny. I don’t want to broadcast like this. This is not how I want to broadcast. I’m just gonna be real with you. I’m doing it. Because I love this opportunity. But I want to do it professionally. And it while it looks that we try to make it as professional as we can. With our freakin three thrift store green screens, and golly, you know, like, and I’m grateful because it’s given me an opportunity. And it’s given me this amazing opportunity. And I’ve met so many amazing people getting to broadcast and I’ve gotten to do some really crazy wild amazing one of a kind interviews and met the best people and scared away a lot more people. And I’m grateful for all of it. But this is not how I want to do it. I don’t want to be I want a real studio. That’s what I envisioned. That’s what I dreamed of. I’m grateful for this basement that has turned it been turned into a studio that we get to try all kinds of different stuff. I am grateful for it because it’s been so much fun. I have learned how to think out of the box and do less with a do do more with less. I feel like we’ve shown God that we can be good stewards and like make a lot out of nothing. And that’s God though. Really best selling book we did with no money. International Best number one best selling book didn’t know most movie, multiple film festival awards with no money just because just a genius with our concept film. Running our network. We believed I mean maybe not Jessica. But I was dead.
Set on running a network and being able to give it away to ministries and nonprofits and Pina Are people that wanted to amplify their voice and have a censorship free platform like I thought, I know that sounds like a crazy business model, but God put it on my heart to do that, why we have a nonprofit media organization was to give away these services. I
like all I’ve ever wanted to do was serve. And, and yet God has given me all of the this, this wisdom and knowledge and expertise to that provides a lot of value. And I’m not saying this to brag, because it’s sucks, to be honest. God’s called me to giveaway media services that are worth lots of money, because people pay lots of money for it. But God’s told us put it on my heart to give it away and to help people that don’t have access to it. And yet my experience is very few I really care and give a shit about it. Just being real.
I and you know, what’s weird? I know what I’m, I’ve been saying for over two years about the need for media knowledge, and what it can do for people and how it can change things. And it’s really just a mindset shift. Really. It’s not even that complicated this shift. And to think as an operate as a media first organization. We’ve tried giving it away to the people that need it most. But it’s interesting, don’t the people that find value in what we do have the money to pay for it.
Because we’ve helped them and they value our work by giving away our network has proven to be up to this point. Dumb. Ridiculous. Yeah, maybe. But for me, it was an act of obedience. Crazy enough to give it away. Because that’s what God put on my heart to do. Maybe I’m crazy. Maybe pursuing my dreams is crazy. But here’s here’s the thing. I would much rather go for all of it. I’m not talking about my, the biggest dreams in this world. I’m talking about like, all of it. I don’t care if the earth is flat. I don’t care if it’s a pine cone, I don’t, I don’t care. Whatever shape it is, my dreams exceed the earth. That heavenly dreams. And while I’m here, I’m expecting to do big things for God, and His people and for people that are suffering. I’m expecting to do that. I’m expecting to do it. Using the gifts and talents that God gave me. I don’t expect to fail. This network may disappear. This 11 320 22 This network and its ambitions and its plans and its desire to serve and elevate voices all over the world. Give it away to people and just trust that people would see the value and give so we could keep going. But I believe that that was that’s what I believe that that’s what God’s called us to do. So we did it. But here’s the thing. Even if it fails, even if the digital Noah’s Ark sinks or electric shoots itself in the bathtub that was there was a joke there somewhere. And anyway, even if it fails like it doesn’t stop the dream. It doesn’t stop anything doesn’t stop the work we do doesn’t start with the wisdom that God’s given us our talents. Look, if I could live out of a suitcase traveling the world Oh, because it’s other here’s the other thing. It’s not just that we’re may lose our network. It’s 11 320 22 and have not paid rent since September.
Somehow I have an amazing wife that standing by me anyway. I could look at a lot Things, say, Well, if I would have kept my mouth shut, or if I would have not said this, I probably would have not taken that COVID test. I think about all these things that I would love to point my finger on blame. I just trust God, even even if this ark sinks, even if we get a victim in the next, we’re get our eviction notice in the next few days. And I don’t even really know what happens after that. Even if that happens, I trust God’s plan. And I assure you, I guess the biggest reason I wanted to do this broadcast is not to go, oh, you please rescue us. I mean, look. I care about what we do. I know, people, some people value it. And, but it’s like, no one’s responsibility to bail us out. Like we wanted to serve in a way that we serve. And if you find value, then you will donate or you’ll give or other people will notice what we’re doing. And they’ll give. I know, it’s a weird business model. But you know, I’m really inspired by those restaurants that don’t have prices on the menu. And they have, where they allow people to come enjoy their meal, eat, and you leave, whatever you have, or whatever you feel led to give model works for them really well. I want to do that with food trucks. So to be able to help the homeless, that’s what I want to do. That’s actually a branch off of our community center vision of what we want to do with the live mana worldwide foundation. So here’s the thing, like, I’m not giving up on anything. I mean, it’s very strange. To the feeling like to lose all of my content on Facebook, that sucked to lose it all on Twitter, no big deal to lose it all on YouTube. That sucked. And even when I decided to start over and make a new channel, madmen got in trouble like immediately. So like, we had to have our own network, I mean, and even the network that we were like flying under the radar, when we were with e 360. Like we got kicked off there, because of the subject matter we were talking about. So we just we look at a NES necessity, we built the digital Noah’s Ark. And I want to keep going, I want to keep doing it. And I it’s not that I’m trying to make it this biggest, baddest network on the planet. I just want to be a place that people can come to to watch powerful content that there’s no there’s it’s IT people speaking their truth. That’s not censored. You don’t have to agree with it. But they’re speaking their truth. I mean, I’m not listen, I know that there’s some wacky stuff out there. And there’s got to be discernment. But I mean, the stuff that I’ve gotten in trouble for why I’ve gotten my kicked off YouTube and kicked off Facebook and kicked off Twitter and picked all that up was stuff that was in the actual news. So in official studies, like I’m, I know I can listen. Nothing would surprise me. Lizard queen. Nothing. Like nothing would surprise me. Nothing. Donald Trump’s really a woman Donald Trump’s anti price Donald Trump’s a tweet has a twin. Sure, at this point, seriously, I nothing would surprise me. Pardon my cough. So you know, and here’s the deal. Maybe I don’t have the talent to be a professional broadcaster, or to be a professional talk shows. Maybe not? I don’t know. I mean, I’ve got my own style. I don’t really follow anyone’s rules. I’m not consistent. I don’t do the same thing every time at all. Which makes it confusing for me because it would make my life easier if I did the same thing every time.
I’m not good at following formats. I’m not good at staying on a script because I don’t make them don’t want to I just wanted to Talk like I again, like the way I, the people that I was inspired by when radio were just like you were there that the audience was part of the conversation. I missed the chat, would love to have that love to have the audience interaction. Because ultimately my dream is to not sit in this chair behind a green screen where there’s art in the background. See? Just so stupid. But you know, you make that actually it’s kind of cool.
Mercy sorry about my cough that gum. I feel like I have like sacks of fluid in my lungs. So yeah. I mean, I just like I want a live audience. I got spoiled, when when I was doing the Saturday night service in front of a live audience of Word of God Church, getting to interact with the audience and coming up with new stuff. But here’s the deal. Maybe if I don’t have the talent, to make it and get to do my own version of The Tonight Show one day and host the Oscars, which is something I want to do, which is kind of funny, because I really don’t even like movies. I prefer limited series. I wanted to make the devil inside me in a movie into a movie. But really, because we made the movie into episodic X. And we’d like to make it into a TV series. But like doing the show, like this is not what I want to do. I want a producer. I want people that handled the camera for me. Because I can’t get this level, right the way I want it. And I want to stand up when I broadcast and I want to wear a suit like that. Or that right there. That guy right there. Like I want to wear a suit. And also, I don’t want to just do a regular Tonight Show. No, I want to go in travel to different cities all over the world. And do live shows in front of a live audience there. But here’s the thing. By day, when we travel, we’re serving in the communities. What we’re teaching, we’re doing the youth media literacy program. So if we don’t need the buildings for it, we can fit into any community center anywhere in the world, any ministry, a church will come in, and we can teach. We want to create the facilities though, because we want to create safe places. And when there’s a whole vision there that’s on our website. That’s what I want to do. And then I would like go be willing to go back on social media. And then my videos that would be you know, just behind the camera regular camera would just be like phone so
this is not my dream. This No offense. So my dream. My dream is to run a media conglomerate that is known for creating and elevating other media organizations for truth. Like we want to be bigger than Disney, big vision. And I understand that broadcast and things like that are going to change soon. But you know what, I will also want to broadcast and have the perfect cameras. Not to make me look prettier, because I’m sick of bad camera quality. And I my camera quality is inconsistent. My internet’s inconsistent sometimes. Sometimes the mic sounds funny because the controls are weird. Sometimes Internet doesn’t work. Sometimes the computer runs I learned something new about my computer. It runs at such a high percentage that it makes other things shut down. So sometimes I skip out. I’m tired of the quality not being perfect. It’s never been perfect since I started. And I know what perfect looks like. But we’ve we’ve made do with what we’ve had. I mean, the way that that I’ve rigged up by computers and cameras to make it work. It’s because I believe in my dream. So if the network goes away well, you know, okay. We our heart is intentions with the purpose and the way that we want to build That, like, the vision we have for it can go into any organization. I didn’t need to be ours, I don’t care, the strategy that we have the knowledge that we have a cloud, like give it to someone else. Because in the end, I just want to see again made. Don’t, I don’t need the credit. I don’t need that. I would like to see this happen. I want to see this vision come to life, I want to see the media literacy centers come to life. And there’s a deep, deep reason why I want to see my hosting dreams come true. And I believe that they will, I believe that I’m going to host the Oscars. And I’m saying this, I’m 11 320 22. And I’m saying this in the face of losing this network in a couple of days, that we ever wanted to charge people for a giveaway. And the same with our media with our the mana worldwide Foundation, like we don’t need that title and that name to keep operating in serve and be used by God. And anyway. So we lose our network and lose the show. I mean, I could go other places, but I get censored everywhere. So I don’t really know what the point would be. So I don’t know what this looks like. But my dreams aren’t going to go away. I’m not going to quit, not going to give up. I’m not even really worried about it. We may lose our house in a few days. I’m not really worried about that either. I don’t know why. I don’t know if this is what a relationship with Jesus does is when you just get to this place where you just trust Him. Even when like shows hitting the fan all around you are all around me. But then again, I’m also looking at a lot of people are waking up to a lot of really bad news. A lot of people are suffering. A lot of people don’t know Jesus. A lot of people have no peace. I wouldn’t trade my life for anyone’s anyone’s.
But you shouldn’t want to trade with anyone’s either. Because what God has planned for you. Here’s the thing. Here’s why. I can’t give up on what I believe in my heart is to be my destiny. And I won’t give up. It’s not that I can’t I won’t.
And I look, I questioned things about the Bible all the time. I do. It doesn’t mean that I don’t believe it’s the most amazing, perfect book ever written. Especially when you include all the stuff that was taken out. In the book, Jesus himself said that we would have days like this, and what we would see in the last days, and it’s all unfolding. Daniel’s prophecy is why we do what we do. Why we sit down on this path my earliest visions came from well, I mean they, how they happen they correlated to Daniel’s prophecy, man merging with machine iron and clay, the singularity, the fourth industrial revolution, the Internet of bodies
so got off social media while I’m running on our account on Twitter now. That was a mistake. But on their last two days and ish. It’s like, walking back into hell, man, I missed it. I’m so lucky. Here’s the deal. I don’t know what’s going to happen. We may not be here anymore. I’m not going anywhere. Because I believe in what God’s called me to do. And so I’ll gladly sacrifice this network. I will gladly sacrifice my show. I’ve made 15 of them now. It’s not like a marriage concert. cept or the title, I have a love affair with gratitude, unfiltered still, but I changed my name. farting around. But I’m ready for primetime dad gummit. So this gets taken away from me, I’m like, Okay, why surrender this to God all surrendered good. or below average, as some of you may say, I’ll surrender that for your extraordinary all day, every day. Because, look, let’s face it. Nothing’s really great. Right now, I’m grateful. Because I know what life was like before Jesus, grateful. But um, anything great. My, I mean, my marriage and my family, yes. But the things that I value and hold on to and the desires of my heart, it’s not where I want it to be. It’s not what I set out to do. I’m not there yet. I’m not there yet. And I won’t give up until I’m dead. And you know what? Even right before I get there, I’m gonna already have made another place to go. Because I really want to spend every last moment I have pursuing all that God has for me. And that includes serving in the way that I believe that he’s created me to serve and why he brought my wife and I together the way that we did. I don’t want to lose this network. I don’t want to lose all of our content. Again. I don’t want to lose the work that we’ve done. losing it, in a way, it makes it even more challenging for my dreams, to come true. Or even fulfill our vision as individuals as a couple, as an organization, as a network, as a family. I trust God with everything and so I just wanted to use this broadcast, which may be the last who knows. But I am saying the Lord I surrender the show, this network our foundation, our dreams, our vision, the desires of our heart which surrender them all to if they don’t belong, remove them I laid at your feet and I trust you I believe that you are the God that does the impossible I may not have believe that had I not experienced the supernatural moment that I surrendered my life to you but I but I know that you do the impossible you’ve rehabilitated my life in ways that like don’t even make sense. After all the evil I did and all the hell that I caused and the people I’ve heard for you to give me the life that I have now even with what I could lose
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what you’ve given
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me so much greater. So I trust you enough with all of these things. To surrender them to take them or take them. They’re yours. They will be done. What is it in your life that you’re hanging on to? That is really not serving you. That is not getting you where you want to go where you believe you should be. What is it that you believe is good? Because it pays the bills He keeps food on the table there’s more than you want. But because this is good, you’re cool with it what are you hanging on to that you know no longer belongs to you
what would you be willing to give up for your dreams
surrender that. Surrender that. Because then I believe your heart aligns with God’s
I’m grateful for the 500 Plus broadcasts we’ve been able to do. Of course, you know, a lot of them have been erased from history now, because of getting kicked off of so many platforms but doesn’t matter. I’m grateful for the journey. I don’t I know God’s not done with it. It just may not look the same. On the other side, and I’m okay with that, too. This has been awesome. And I look forward to all the people we get to serve and all the people we get to help. I look forward to God making my dreams come true. And while that happens, that was going to enable us to make a lot more.
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More more people.
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streams come true. Because in the end, all I really want to be known for is helping people make their dreams come true. And that’s why I’m the world’s mayor. God bless
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