The Devil Inside Me

“Inheritance” The Devil Inside Me

“Inheritance” The Devil Inside Me

The Devil Inside Me “Inheritance”

Well on his way onto full-blown meth, cocaine, and sex addiction find out what happens when Josh receives his inheritance after his father’s death.

The Devil Inside Me is a real-life, twisted account of Joshua T. Berglan’s life that led him to lose his kids, sanity, freedom, health, money, homes, trust, and hope. What happens in someone’s life that they end up in jail 6 times, bankrupt twice, OD multiple times, get HIV, divorced 3 times, end up homeless, and become a chemsex addict? Where did it all go wrong? How could things have been different? What are the consequences of living a lie? What happens when one directly defies God and the purpose they were created for? The Devil Inside Me gives a detailed and uncensored look into Joshua’s life, his double life, and takes a spotlight directly to his shadow world that ultimately led to his death and rebirth.

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“Newport” The Devil Inside Me

“Newport” The Devil Inside Me

The Devil Inside Me is a real-life, twisted account of Joshua T. Berglan’s life that led him to lose his kids, sanity, freedom, health, money, homes, trust, and hope. What happens in someone’s life that they end up in jail 6 times, bankrupt twice, OD multiple times, get HIV, divorced 3 times, end up homeless, and become a chemsex addict? Where did it all go wrong? How could things have been different? What are the consequences of living a lie? What happens when one directly defies God and the purpose they were created for? The Devil Inside Me gives a detailed and uncensored look into Joshua’s life, his double life, and takes a spotlight directly to his shadow world that ultimately led to his death and rebirth.

The Devil Inside Me “Death”

The Devil Inside Me “Death”

I was still riding high from the 8 balls and still drunk from the tequila I had been drinking non-stop since noon the day before so the reality of what was taking place had not really hit me.  As the jail door slammed on my cell, I noticed that it was just me there, alone, with a metal toilet attached to the sink, a metal bed with a 1-inch pad to sleep on, surrounded by solid walls all around me.  I couldn’t see out of my cell in any direction but I could hear the screams of madmen.  

The Devil Inside Me “Kids”

The Devil Inside Me “Kids”

I wanted to be me and there was nothing about me that wanted or needed kids in my life. Finding myself divorced again, I made up my mind that I was going to be upfront about what I must have sexually to be happy, and that was a loving relationship with a woman that allowed for us to bring other men into the bedroom. I also wanted to be able to party and do drugs when I wanted so I ensured in my dating profiles on apps that I made it clear what I was looking for. I felt free and I acted in celebration mode with each and every hookup moving forward. I was the life of the party again and then after each party ended I would disappear, back in the shadows. My double life now had its own double life and I worked tirelessly to keep It fed and happy. Every time I felt Its presence, or its groan, I did not resist anymore, I just said “yes” and started my hunt.

The Devil Inside Me “Cheater”

The Devil Inside Me “Cheater”

All through college, with every relationship I got myself into, I cheated. I could not help myself and I had convinced myself that being with a man was not cheating.  When I would cheat with a woman, I would rationalize it by telling whoever my girlfriend at that time “we broke up, I was hurt and I made a mistake.”  Of course, I orchestrated these fights so I could get the freedom to disappear for a day or two allowing me to cheat until satisfied. 

The Devil Inside Me “HIV”

The Devil Inside Me “HIV”

“Sir, do you have any questions?”  

“Sir?”

No.  

I left the doctor’s office abruptly, determined to erase all of this from my memory.  I deserve this and everything bad that is going to happen, I thought to myself.  What is the quickest way to die?  I went home, poured a glass of tequila, and called my dealer.  

The Devil Inside Me “LaLaLand”

The Devil Inside Me “LaLaLand”

had been to California so many times in the last year that I had established enough friendships and business relationships to feel comfortable there, but this was different. Pulling around those mountains to merge onto the 405 sent a surge of energy through my spine.  I had been sober for several days, other than weed that is, but I don’t really count that as a drug…at least there had been no meth or blow. I was motivated, pumped up, and ready to take on the world.