Jessica and God

He Is Bigger Than A Book – Jessica and God

He Is Bigger Than A Book – Jessica and God

It’s been a dream
Mixed
Mashed
And overly interpreted.

God is bigger than a book.

“But I am afraid that as the serpent deceived Eve by his cunning, your thoughts will be led astray from a sincere and pure devotion to Christ.”2 Corinthians 11:3
As your heart changes to meet your mind
It begins to make a lot more sense,
And not in the ways that they tell you it will.

God does not mind being questioned,
God wants us to seek to understand.

“The fear of the Lord is the beginning of knowledge; fools despise wisdom and instruction.”
Proverbs 1:7
He has nothing to prove.
Your belief (or unbelief) will not change anything,
So you need not make deals with Him.

Halloween VS God

Halloween VS God

Is Halloween the devils day,

or is it actually more about God than we think? (Depends on your Google search…)

Can a man-made event hold a candle to The Power of God?

Could my child’s participation in Halloween cause them to mess up God’s plan?

If we trick or treat, does God think we don’t love Him?

Will my family be cursed if we dress up in costumes?

Will we go to hell for all of these things?

This holiday seems to spark controversy and division between believers and Followers of Christ,

Which I do not believe is what God would want.

So, for other’s who, like myself, have struggled with this day, I’ll share my thoughts:

Halloween is just a word,

Unless you give it power to

become more.

“Life is not easy.” – Jessica & God

“Life is not easy.” – Jessica & God

Sometimes I struggle to feel connected to those I keep close to me,
And relying on God as our provider can sometimes feel like a game of chicken.
Being away from my children when they go to their dad’s house has become nearly unbearable,
And CoParenting is comparable to an amusement park attraction.

Loneliness can feel tangible.

The more challenging life becomes,
The harder it can be to hear God.
.
I try to manage every aspect of life before
I just can’t anymore, and I begin to fall apart.
There are times that it sounds so much easier to just sleep through the rest.

In these darker days I forget to surrender.
I forget to give Him my problems.
I forget that God can help me find my way back.

Sometimes I am so scared of what might happen
if I were to stop trying to hold it all together.

So I hold on too tight
and for far too long.
But by doing this I am pushing God away.
I’m telling God that I don’t trust him to take these problems from me.

I am also allowing the enemy room to set up camp in my mind, and in my life.
Once this happens it’s only a matter of time
Before that angel of darkness is wreaking all kinds of havoc.

I’ve started a new thing.
When I feel like I can’t take anymore
I go to the lake.

I sit by the water, I cry and sometimes I scream.
I release everything that weighs down my spirit.

I don’t always feel better though,
And I don’t always hear God’s answers to my questions.
Sometimes I feel even more defeated,
And I need to go back day after day.

Until that one day happens,
When God does something inside of me,
And I begin to feel peace again.

God’s blessings are not given to us as rewards or prizes.
He doesn’t value money or give weight to fear.
We are His treasure, His Children.
When we allow Him to work miracles,
He’s able to fix us
From the inside out.
God wants to take everything that this world has thrown at us,
And He makes us whole again.

We only have to remember.

“Be Quiet.” Jessica & God

“Be Quiet.” Jessica & God

We are taught at a very young age to participate in self-dialog.

As a child I remember my dad calling me “motor-mouth,” or asking “who put a quarter in it” when I would try to tell a story.

Our parents and teachers tell us to talk to ourselves, rather than out loud.
They do not talk to us unless it is on topic with their own agenda.
And half the time they are manipulating the narrative in order to achieve their desired results.

To add fuel to the fire,
During conflict we are then sent to our rooms, often angry and confused.
We are sent away with no one to talk to but ourselves.
How do we learn to love correctly if we are never shown love that is unconditional?

As adults, we are holding things from our childhood,
Because we were never given a safe space.
Now we are so used to keeping things to ourselves that
It’s become hard to believe anyone wants to take our pain from us.
So we find places inside of ourselves to tuck it all away,
Until it manifests into physical form.

Our minds have been programmed to be noisy,
And it’s making us sick.
It’s literally killing us.

We have been programmed to talk to ourselves, rather than to be silent.
This makes our mind like a playground for the devil.
Because he knows that it is hard to hear God with so much noise.

Last night I made the decision to unplug that cord tying me to this world.
I told my mind to be still.
I turned off the noise.

This morning the fog was gone,
my faith was a little bit bigger,
and I remembered to listen a bit longer than I speak.

“Carry each other’s burdens and so you will fulfill the law of Christ.”
-Galatians 6:2

“Wake Up Sleepers: Programed” Jessica and God

“Wake Up Sleepers: Programed” Jessica and God

“Oh let the wickedness of the wicked come to an end;
but establish the just:
for the righteous God trieth the hearts and reins.”
-Psalm 7:9 KJV

The laws of this earth are not for us.
They are not meant to protect us.
They are meant to divide us.

Nothing on earth is exactly as it seems
We were never meant to succeed under man’s law,
but under God’s law.

If we only knew the truth
I bet we’d turn and walk away
from everything we’d normally run to.

The things that we believed were to help us,
to protect us…
Are the very same things that made us this way,
Broken.

They broke us to rebuild us
So they could control us.

We have been categorized
into a multitude of tiny groups,
programmed to believe that we are opposing forces.

We have been programmed to either
Fight or Flight.

We have so many programmed beliefs
that we can no longer see where we started,
Or where we went wrong.

Every word & Every action is a trigger,
The lingering aftermath of trauma for someone,
Regardless of intentions.

We all need to heal,
And we cannot do it alone.

It can only be done by Love,
God’s Love
Through us.

Jessica and God “Friends”

Jessica and God “Friends”

Friends

Proverbs 12:26
“The righteous choose their friends carefully, but the way of the wicked leads them astray.”
Good friends are watchful.
Friendship is God’s gift to us, but not all friendships He approves.

I have never really had more than one really close friend…
Not the kind that you talk to every day.
But…
I have always enjoyed my relationships this way.

I have also never had
A lifelong best friend…
And
I sometimes wonder if this is normal?

Not every relationship in my life has come to a dead end though.
Most come to a fork in the road.
This is when we typically continue on our journeys
Separately.
While maintaining the friendship once the purpose is fulfilled.
Only from afar.

I have also walked away from friendships once my spirit no longer feels peace in them.
Even though it’s different than most,
I have enjoyed living life this way.

I have always preferred connections that hold meaning and purpose
Over relationships that just fill time and space in my life.
Putting more energy into loving one person
has always allowed me to develop relationships on a deeper level
Then if I had a group of lifelong friends to spread myself around.

My spirit comes alive when trust and intimacy leads to growth
And Synergy.
It’s like no other feeling in the world.

Living my entire life watching others enjoy their big groups of friends
Who they’ve known since kindergarten
Has made me wonder if I am doing this friendship thing wrong.

I’ve learned a few things…
Not everyone is “for” us.
People are not meant to stay in our lives forever.
Friendships are not ours to keep.
God friends are gifts to help us get to where
We are meant to be.

We are here to serve each other…
To be vessels for God to use.

God calls people to be in our lives
so they can make us better and stronger.
We are not meant to hang on to these relationships
Past their expiration date.
Because when we do
We only get in His way.

So now,
I don’t wonder if I am normal.
The truth is that I’ve never been alone.
God’s always been with me.

I have stopped wondering about who will stay
Or for how long.
I simply enjoy the time while it lasts
Knowing that the next phase of my journey
Is just around the corner.

Jessica and God “Love Your Neighbor”

Jessica and God “Love Your Neighbor”

“Jesus tells the parable of the lost sheep to show that the Kingdom of God is accessible to all, even those who were sinners or strayed from God’s path.
He uses the example of a shepherd (God) who has 100 sheep and one goes missing.
The shepherd leaves the 99 others and searches high and low for the lost sheep.
Jesus stresses that when the shepherd finds the lost sheep he rejoices over it more than the 99 who did not go astray.
This is how God will rejoice when a sinner returns to Him.”
(Matthew 18: 10–14)
Everyone’s journey with the Lord is different….
And
It is not our job to judge our brothers and sisters.
However,
It is our job to love them just like our Father God loves us…
Because the only way
to lead His
Lost children
back to Him…
Is to let His unconditional love shine through us.